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Old 10-19-2007, 02:31 AM   #9 (permalink)
Jennifer
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1. What is your personality type?
INTP; Enneagram 5w4 sx/sp

2. Are you male or female?
Yes. (=female) See here, flip and reverse answer #2.

3. What country do you live in now? What country are you born in?
Pennsylvania, USA (born in same)

4. What cultural background are you?

Caucasian; Christianized

5. What religion are you? What religion is your family?
Theist/Agnostic; family is Christian (conservative)

6. What career are you in or looking to be in? What are you doing right now to help you achieve this career goal?
Career goals have always been confusing/nebulous for me, I was never quite sure what I truly wanted. Career concerns have been momentarily laid aside while I work through some life issues right now, but I plan to use my writing, communication, and creative skills more in the future. My current career is in the area of technical writing, art/documentation production, and report design/coding. I wish it was more in areas such as counseling/therapy or psychology.

7. What is your friendships like with both genders? How many good friends do you have and why are you friends with these people?
I enjoy building friendships with women far more than with men. I do not identify nearly as much with men or have that much to talk about with them, and often it will become boring. (Even the relationships I do develop with them at this time seem to be more on the surface; female relationships go deeper and seem more relevant to me.) I do have 2-3 close male friendships, with men who are more androgynous in nature (they are all NP's, I realize).

I don't really know how to define a level of friendship with people (i.e., "good friends"), because I am very willing to open myself up to virtually anyone, as much as they are willing to handle; I'm not usually the one to put the brakes on first. However, I am also very sensitive to how comfortable people are and will not go further than they want; I hate to intrude or be a burden.

The people I bond with most easily share traits off this list: Thoughtful, respectful, playful, intelligent, open-minded/approachable, good listeners, honest, responsible, willing to learn, exploring, funny/witty, imaginative.

8. What paranoias do you have?
  • Being looked upon negatively by others, especially when I feel I did not deserve it.
  • Disappointing people's expectations.
  • Losing my creativity or intelligence.

9. What are your vices?
  • Too passive, do not stand up for myself or know when I should even do so.
  • Have trouble making decisions and sticking with them; undisciplined.
  • Staying too detached from people when they need emotion; using intellect to protect myself.
  • Not spending enough time with people physically, just doing things with them.
  • Self-absorped.
  • Inexplicable shame about who and what I am.
  • Wordy as hell.

10. What are your fears?
  • Spiders
  • Being unable to take care of myself and having to depend on others, especially physically.
  • Not being quite as smart, creative, or profound as I hope that I am.
  • Failing my commitments.
  • Being utterly alone without anyone at all.
  • Never finding happiness in life or peace within myself.

11. What is your relationship like with your parents? siblings (if you had any)?
  • Amiable but not close. We are accessible and do not hate each other, but have little in common. My parents live 90 minutes away; my sister, 3-4 hours.
  • My mother is an ISFJ and I pulled away from her when younger because she was too dependent emotionally and I felt smothered by her. She also does not really understand me at ALL. And especially since I have left the church.
  • My father was an alcoholic. He is much easier to talk to in some ways -- he "gets me" more than my mother -- but there is still much distance there, and he is still sort of clueless in terms of how people work.
  • My sister is an ISFJ and five years younger, so we never spent much time together at all. We have little in common except our past. She is a very nice, giving person; but at best we will just maintain a distant but amiable relationship.

12. How are you with expressing emotion in public?
  • I can laugh and express joy easily.
  • I do not cry in public.
  • I show sympathy/empathy and do not mind hugs, but overt displays of affection can sometimes very much rub me the wrong way or really embarrasses me. ("No gushie!")
  • I try hard not to get angry in public; and the times when I do, everyone knows I must be very upset. (Afterwards, I will usually feel embarrassed even if I know I was in the right.)


13. How do you think people saw you in high school? How do you think people see you now?
  • Then: People thought I was talented and creative but lived in a world irrelevant to theirs. (I grew up in a very rural setting, where most people never went to college or attended community college and were not very ambitious.)
  • Now: People who get to know me realize I am smart and funny and creative and considerate/caring, but they also think I am too passive and apologetic, not engaging as much as I should, and that I "cover myself up" rather than letting myself be fully who and what I am without apology. I could promote myself more.

And finally....
14. What do you see as the point to your life and life in general?


The purpose of my life is to:
  • Perceive and share a bigger picture of Life and what it is and what it means
  • Voyage of discovery: Explore and synthesize every experience and situation and insight I can, so I can convey a sense of it to others in a way they understand.
  • Perceive and encourage others to become fully who and what they are, so that they feel worthwhile and unique and valuable, and blaze like stars.

All of these things are tied together -- the Truth of life and the universe, and the Truth of individual identity.

As far as the purpose of life in general? I do not know if there is a bigger picture, I just know what I am to do.
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